After waiting a few seconds I heard a voice loud ringing on the other end ...
-Ready ?! -
-Hello, I hope not to have disturbed ... I call on the announcement in the paper-
Ah, yes ... apartment for rent, right? -
Yes, Via degli Oleandri 17 -
-Well, it is interesting we can meet again today in the morning, so show him-
-Humm, I just wondered how ever the price was so low, I would not want something goes wrong-
-No, no, no problem, indeed it is a nice apartment and also the area is quiet, the price is due to the fact that I have money problems , and I always another house in this city, so that flat is completely useless to me, and rather than leave it blank I thought it best to rent it ... I have dealt personally furnishing, there are just the necessary furniture, anything that ... if not to his liking then he can always sell and buy other-
-see ... Well, then it looks like what I was looking ... when I see him? - For 10-
this morning okay? -
Yes, the address listed on? -
-Sisi
-Ok, see you soon then
-A- early-
only instilled a slight warmth in the air that Tuesday's fall, but a cool breeze continued to make the air at times poignant ... the mantle of the trees was tinged with new colors, the leaves become the next to fall, those little fragile on the branches of trees which did not know the name, trembled in the slight movement of air and then dance gracefully up to caress the ground ... I watched fascinated with the ...
Compared to a few hours before my temper had suffered a slight improvement ... anger, in fact, had given way to determination, I would not allow anyone to obstruct, I finally managed to start a new life, even if I knew then, once arrived in the evening, my mind was again wrong in that hideous maze that was my memory ...
My father had died just three days, but my eyes seemed a lot more, since birth I had a hard enough life ... My mother died giving me the light, and I have always hated this, I have killed an innocent person, which made me a killer, but the worst was the remorse that I felt toward my father ... I had deprived of his reason for living, and despite that, I had always loved him, and when I told him it would be better if I'd never got angry and started asking me to promise not to think anymore things like that ... I promised him, but still avendoci tried, still I can not change your mind ...
When he was with me he always did ignore it, and painted a false smile on his face, but despite being only a child I understood that it was only to not feel remorse for a crime that I was sure belonged to me, but I was sure a part of him that hated me ... One evening, I was 6 years old, I woke up to drink, and I heard sobs coming from her room ... probably thought was sleeping, and perhaps would have been better ...
Concerned I went into his room and found him with a photograph in his hands ... he always kept on the bedside table ... depicting the two of them sitting together on a meadow, mom had a daisy Trai unmazzolino hair and wild flowers between long fingers, his face was hidden Trai petals, and dad, a few inches from her, looked at her, and that look ... has always been like a stab to the heart for me ... looked as if it were the most precious treasure in the world, why spend the morning sun, the flowers keep their scent, the moon her white magic ... why life continues to take its eternal cycle ...
The memory of that photo was all I had left her, now ...
I felt that my eyes were starting to become wet and I wanted to avoid a scene in public, so I forced myself to stop thinking about her ...
now lacked a little encounter with the "girl in the apartment" ... looking back I had not even asked for the name ...
I waited until 10 and 20, then I would call ...
At 10:18 last saw her arrive with a sophisticated and elegant demeanor as he deviated a blonde lock of hair from her face
-Hello, I bet you're the girl in the apartment, she said to me a radiant smile
-Yes, I'm Anna, nice -
-Rosalie, but you are welcome to call me Rose, Rosie, as you prefer-
-It 's been so long since you waiting for? -
-Noooo, only one-half hour
Oh, all right- said not disregard ...
now I was resigned to let it go, so even if I had decided to rent the apartment would have been right sometimes ...
-Hemm, then are we going? -
-Oh, Sisi, of course, sorry, I always lose in chat ... Come, I'm sure you'll like-
The lock opened with a click and we were inside ...
The first floor was open atmosphere, modern kitchen, black and white, was divided from the living room through a wall half way up ... the environment was quite restricted. and probably for this reason, rather than warm and welcoming.
The sofa struck me from the outset, the finish was black with yellow ocher and small studs, nothing special, but had a certain something that I had won.
There was also a small wood stove that would make me company on cold winter days.
-... and here is the French door opening onto balcony-
stretched his gaze to the neighboring houses and took a deep breath, holding for a while 'the air in the lungs, as if it could taste it more ... was the air of my house.
-Like-It-
was certainly smiling squeaked
-Coff, coff-
I turned to Rosalie ... I had completely forgotten about her ...
-So, what have you decided? -
-I take it I answered without thinking
-Well, I was sure ... go to complete all the paperwork, you sign the contract
I followed up on the lower level ...
"Then you come and live there now? Do you have any luggage to bring? -
Yes, I want to move now and no, no baggage-
-Really? And sorry, it's not me that wants your business, but why? -
a few seconds ... I had no desire to tell her of my stepmother and the rest, my mind was lost looking for an excuse, but his voice stopped me before I could find one
-Ok, I understand, you do not like to talk about it, "said as he walked to the door ... the contract had been signed and the keys were on the kitchen table
-Sorry, is not for you, is that ...-
-Sisi, do not worry ... but we do with the rent? -
more sore ...
-I just have the money to pay the first month and a few little extra for emergencies, but do not worry, there will be problems with the payment, I find a job soon-
-Humm ... ok, then I would say that I can go ... you got my number for any problems do not hesitate to call me ... just to chat or go out sometime ... how old are you? -
-19 -
-Ah, I saw 22, we are almost the same age-
-I see you're short of, well, then I'm going, and please, do not hesitate, if you need anything, call-
-Senz 'else, Thanks for Everything-But-
-
When I closed the door behind me I felt a feeling never felt until then ... I was home ...
I addressed another look at the interior furniture, the more I watched, the more I liked, but then thought it his way forcefully in my head ... if I had not found a job I would be forced to get out of there ...
I took the same newspaper that I had been good that morning to search the apartment and read article after article ...
Nobody seemed to be for my ... some had a stipensio too shabby, others did not fall within my competence, others were located too far away ... was about to give up when my eyes were glued to an interesting title:
"LOOKING FOR A JOB SHOP RECORD, REASONABLE PAY, PLEASE DO NOT LOSS AND
NULLAFACIENTI. FOR FURTHER INFORMATION PLEASE CONTACT THE NUMBER BELOW "
Nullafacienti? But those who had written that article?
But all in all seemed like a good job, and especially would allow me to pay the rent, also had the address in the zip code of that city ...
That journal had already brought me luck with the apartment and that I hoped would do the same with work.
I thought it was useless to call, I went in the afternoon ... I wrote the address on the phone and went upstairs.
I was exhausted, rather than physically, psychologically ... everything was going well in fretta da non avere neanche il tempo di accorgersene...
Entrata in camera mi buttai sul letto... era tutto in perfette condizioni e nell'aria c'era un odore gradevole, probabilmente qualche deodorante per ambienti...
L'orologio sul cellulare segnava mezzogiorno... la mattinata ormai era passata, e nel pomeriggio sarei andata a sbrigare le piccole commissioni come fare la spesa e comprarmi un cambio d'abiti...
Era incredibile, il mio unico bagaglio erano il cellulare, il portafoglio, e le mie inseparabili Vogue Menthol...
Non potei fare a meno di pensare alla scenata della sera precedente...
Dopo il funerale di papà remained in the house we were just me and Nicole, my stepmother ... 15 years after the death of my mother saw my father happy again ... had even begun to sing in the shower, so after several interviews I was able to make him confess ... fell in love with another woman ...
While I knew that nobody could ever take the place of mother, on the other hand I was happy for him, I was glad to see him smile again, his eyes were animated by a new spark, which in retrospect then I would have preferred to never see ...
He was blinded by love and could not get a real sense of the situation ... she was stealing all ... money, the house ... had destroyed his strength of will, my father had become a puppet in his hands, and slowly it was also moving away from me too ... I tried talking to him, but it was as if he were mesmerized by her, had convinced him that I thought those things only because I was jealous of her.
-Honey, I know what you're going ... think that Nicole wants to take the place of your mother, but you see, is not the case, and believe me ... I do not think that'll never love anyone like I loved her, but there is something Nicole, and I do not want to lose it, I'm happier since she's ... is a wonderful woman, is sweet, including ...-
Yes, you see it that way because that's what you want to see, but believe me, it is not as it seems ... is only pretending, in fact she does not love you, next to you just because you want your money, you may not loved?? -
- As if this were not enough, then you're even more distance to me ... and you can not you see ...- The last two sentences had a totally different tone from the first ... I was sad and disappointed
I remember that moment as if it happened an hour ago ... I burst into tears and hug me and comfort me instead of him he said simply:
-You're wrong, you can not understand
-four years have passed since then, but even now I can not understand ... why do not I simply said:
-What do you mean, I do not never stray from you ...-
From the day they married, the situation deteriorated further ... so she wanted a son, a kind of disciple who followed in his footsteps, I suppose, but my father in the wake of the shock over the death of mother was unable to have her and attitudes began to change ... became colder to him and obviously he had told her before the wedding because he was not aware of, and was blown away as she, but this did not matter, I had noticed a change in his eyes ... There was something slightly evil, but he did not realize it, and when I told her we ended up with the fight, so in order not to further alienate him, I preferred to keep quiet.
was able to manipulate it to get it payable to all ... told him to love me as a daughter, and when he was his attitude towards me was always impeccable, so I was the one who appeared sullen in the eyes of my father.
The day of the funeral of my father, when I saw her shamelessly pretend in his part of the grieving widow, I do not know why ... Perhaps the accumulated tension, perhaps all those false and hypocritical to cuinon care nothing about my father ... I do not know, the fact is that, once alone, I screamed in my face all my hate.
-Well, I guess you'll be happy ... was what you wanted, right? - My voice was full of contempt, coming out of my mouth like poison ...
-You would not believe how much I suck, you're being more subtle and slippery that I have ever known, I hate you, hate you with all of me, know this-the hissed
point me in the eyes of ice face and completely changed expression ... all'immprovviso took off the mask that he always carried and I saw his true face ...
-Poor girl ... I feel so lonely now that there is no longer your daddy loved ... However, there has
-No, wait ... No, oh God I do not want to believe, no, you can not, can not be arrived at so-
-Your father had a steel body, but he was not superman-
-You poisoned my father?!? -
I had deprived of the only love that kept me tied to this crap of the world ...
instinct prevailed and I jumped on him, tore the veil from the widow and gave her a punch in the face with all the strength I had in my body ... began to bleed profusely ... I was about to launch another, but I do not know how. succeeded in blocking the wrists ...
-Hey, girl, get calm down ... and then you just talk ... We two are alike ... six killer, your father loved your mother ... yeah, I've seen in the picture, you know, was the same as you ... very light complexion, same features, I had been in you I would not have even had the courage to look in the mirror ... that poor deluded he believed that love him, haha, was a failure ... put aside his only daughter for the job, has worked hard years ... and for what? Ah, right, for me -
At these words there I saw more ...
I was in the throes of a whirlwind of emotions ... I wanted to strangle her, but I knew that violence would not solve things ... I did not want to be like her ...
-I will never, never like you-I had said that simple sentence with all the hate I owned, whispering softly.
I stared at my eyes and in her for a few seconds to let me see inside ... all the feelings I felt at that time were painted on my face, I knew, and I wanted to see them ... for the last time ...
I left the house, his dirty money and the rest ... I have always sucked the money, and especially the people who prefixed to the feelings
With that little bit of lucidity I had left prelevai all my savings to the bank ... could have been robbery, but now I did not have anything ... nothing that could leave an unbridgeable gap if I had been taken away, at least.
Without knowing what was not even my name, I began running towards the station ... vent all my anger in the muscles of the legs ... now it was dark for hours, but the streets of the big city where I lived were lit so that it did not seem even at night ... my legs were about to give up, and the heart was about to burst in his chest ... the blood was risky rhythms pulsed through my veins, but I managed to get to the station without stopping ... I caught the first train that passed, without even worrying about the destination ... anywhere would be fine, the important thing was that it was far away, as far as possible ...
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